I wish that I’d never met a lot of the people that I’ve met
not because I don’t like them but because I only let them down
and when you disappoint everyone all the time
it’s hard not to want to die
constantly I feel this weird and shameful feeling
like I’m being watched by a thousand glowing, vengeful eyes
behind one way mirrors in public bathrooms and in metro cars
and everywhere I go I know I’m not welcome
Heart Tattoo by Joyce Manor
from Never Hungover Again (2014)
I know that it looks bad,
but it’s the only one I have.
What do you want me to say?
It’s never going away.
We cruise the neighborhood
But it’s not supposed to feel this good